This week started off with a serious hack/spam that threw off my Yahoo Mail account, and as I was trying to fix this problem Yahoo Mail suggested I upgrade, I did and it wiped everything off of my account including contacts/folders/messages/etc.
This is now fixed, although I did have a few words to say about it; which I have expressed in a video prior to the Intentions vs. Perceptions. It includes phrases like 'big sacks of cow sh...manure' 'fart-face!' and the like... if you are interested in seeing that I will put it below the actual video I am now posting.
My Youtube Channel: BeingMarieT
-I started sharing this new material; latex as a fascinating textural medium from an artist perspective. Also to bring awareness to the stereotypes and judgement placed upon it. I thought it would be a great platform to challenge differences, preconceived notions, and views. To be an example that anyone can wear latex, not linked to taboos, and of dark mysterious underground worlds.
-I don't go with the flock/herd/group/whatever you want to call it, I break boundaries and lead by example, try things my way, and see how it goes.
-Those were my intentions; but that which started out as the above has began evolving into this public perception/trend/brand that is a different animal in and of itself which I am not happy with.
-Seeing the interaction and comments I've realized that what I have tried so hard to challenge; over objectification of people, image based society, false advertisement, photoshopped air brushed perfection representation of what one 'should' be, and its effect on youth and individuals, the consequences of materialism, surface focused, over sexualized everything----> I have become my own research subject, so to speak.
-Someone who has personal experience with eating disorders, I can say for certain this is not what I set out to represent or do, I am not and do not support surface shallow instant gratification or present myself due to 'looks' 'image' or 'numbers'.-There is a difference between feeling 'sexy' and something being 'sexual'; I believe this gets mixed up A LOT. Latex is not sexual in any way or form to me, there is no arousal as others may experience. I do feel sexy when I do wear it, as I would when I decide to wear a pair of well fitting comfortable jeans!
-What am I doing? I am trying to refocus, my Youtube channel so I can have it the way I intended to, with the possibility of making a difference (even one viewer at a time). NOT have useless comments about things based on careless image of assumption, being taken as a sexual object. Thank you, if you think I look good in latex but it is never about the 'looks' people (to you maybe, but NOT TO ME).-Also to connect to the Japanese population I have began doing mental health videos in Japanese.
So here is the video:
INTENTIONS vs. PERCEPTIONS: challenging objectification of individuals in society.
This is the video I made right before this expressing my feelings on being hacked/spammed then deleted by Yahoo Mail, appropriately titled:
BIG SACKS OF SH...COW MANURE YAHOO MAIL!
Multi tasking can be a pain in the butt as many times unexpected things arise, but oh well, find solution, fix problem, keep on moving forwards:)