Monday, November 26, 2012

Sensation of Losing Oneself in the Moment.

Have you ever experienced a moment in time where you lose all sense of time, of thought, of all that we are trying to conform; COMPLETE EXUBERANCE, FREEDOM, GALUMPHING ENERGY OF EXPRESSION THAT RADIATES I AM ALIVE!?  

Galumphing: page 42-3 of Kay Redfield Jamison's book EXUBERANCE; The Passion For Life, describes it beautifully, I LOVE this book, I've read it many times over.

Today I had these moments of pure "I am definitely IN my painting".  It is a sensation I hope everyone experiences once in their life.  Wether it is losing yourself at work crunching numbers, running back and forth from here to there, while dancing in a crowded club with music coursing through the cells of your body, standing on a stage performing your heart out, sewing to your hearts content, creating music, singing your soul out in the comfort of your bathroom, ripping seams as you design the next fashion item, hiking through lush forests, swimming with wild dolphins, editing, enveloped in the smells of the dark room, whatever your passion may be, true enjoyment of BEING, these moments are treasures!  

I just couldn't keep from relaying this message.  The brush couldn't translate the expression I needed and wanted to share in my painting, this resulted in taking the bristles within my hands, in between fingers, dripping with paint, splattering the surface of my canvas as if the paint were an extension of my body's movement.  I finally felt satisfied and elated!    

To get to this point can be challenging especially with all the distractions of the modern world.  I find the practice of being in the studio and 'losing myself', a state of targeted concentration, a meditative experience.  If only I can remain in this state at all times, but then I guess those moments wouldn't be as special.  

Forever grateful,

On the wall in my studio; positive affirmation to self:)

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Anti Bullying Awareness Videos

I created 2 videos for my Youtube channel BeingMarieT this week in support of anti-bullying week.  One is in English and the other in Japanese.  Bullying seems to be an escalating issue and I thought I would share my experience with my viewers in hopes to create discussion and increase awareness.

Bullying, and my experience in English:

ストップいじめ!私の経験。(in Japanese)


Friday, November 9, 2012

Deep in Thought, and lots of books!

Here is a recent video I posted onto my Youtube channel about books related to Japanese mental health, as well as other books of interest, and a casual description of what my new project is about (@6:30 in clip).

During the autumn and winter I find myself doing a lot more transfers for the collage elements in my work, and I've come to call the designs I cut out of Japanese paper 'free association cutting' (as in free association writing); only recently have I discovered the significance of the design being one continuous line, all connected from one end to another.  This makes it difficult as I increase the size of my canvases, but I'm always learning new ways to improve upon the process.  

Anyways here is the video and I've got another planned about my very 'un'stereotypical academic experience and thoughts about school; this is something I struggle with even now, oh the conflict~

Thank you so much for reading, and I hope everyone is having a wonderful November!